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My writings

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  43.                              My Writings
In the beginning , I must admit that I know NOTHING . Then why should I write ? It is because I wish to fill in the empty hours of my retirement doing nothing .
Sheikh (late) Ikram Ali , the father of my childhood friend ,  Tariq Ikram  ,a mentor and a very noble man, once told  yours truly that knowledge is a vast ocean and he had just stepped in . If a gentleman at the age 70 plus can say that with his vast  knowledge and experience of the world , I am a total novice .
After retirement from the Government , I took cudgels with the Government over a language of my retirement notification  and succeeded in having it altered. The said language was obscene .It said that Mr. Mahfooz ur Rahman ‘has been retired’ instead of saying that ‘ has retired’ . To my utter surprise the entire Ministry’s hierarchy was at a loss to see the difference . Till today , the same pattern is followed in the Government machinery .
I had great plans for my post retirement life  : running an NGO , printing a newspaper or a magazine etc . However , everywhere I looked I saw  giant road blocks facing me . I said sorry to my family urging to get a job to keep me busy . After serving for 36 years , I knew that any job in the Government  is the easiest thing in the world plus almost half years leave on full pay . I knew that rules are made for persons  and they are there to mould the rules . But job in the private sector is another matter . I was able to compare my life with son’s life who worked in the private sector .
At school and college , summary or précis writing were the death of yours truly .How hated them ? Only Allah Knows .But never in my wildest dreams have I thought I would earn my bread and butter in writing silly briefs and summaries  for  36 years. However , I found great mentors , Mr. Zahur Azar  , the former Cabinet Division and his deputy , Mr. K. U. Faruqui ,
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particularly the former , in this field .Their practice was to revise written material meant for the Cabinet over and over again till they were satisfied . I remembered that the English authors and poets had scribbling , cross and dashes in the manuscripts .  Willy nilly I was compelled to follow suit . I wanted that nobody could criticize my drafting . That made me a writer .
The first days after retirement were spent in visiting long forgotten relations and friends and occasionally the office . However , my good friend , Mr. M.Ishaq (late ), advised against going to the office again for “ he said that colleagues would talk against at his back that he comes to have tea or make a telephone while wasting their time “.
I want to thank Allah for His Infinite Mercy . I am leading a comfortable life . I started writing to keep myself busy and as a hobby . I choose my topics at random. I also started forwarding copies of what I had written for two objectives:-
1.    Purely selfish motives . I share the same human failings of conceit and the desire to seek applause .
2.    To seek atonement for my sins .
3.    Sharing knowledge experiences and discussions . I feel there is a vast scope for discussing . That way we become richer in terms of  attaining more knowledge .
Some of my relations (Mr.Zia ul Islam , my cousin from my mother’s side ) and friends (Mr. M.Khalil Sufi ) send very educative SMS . This way I learn new  things about Islam , the world and  fresh ideas . I even learn from my children and grandchildren , though the latter are young .
Mahfooz ur Rahman
Islamabad
January 27, 2013    
   
     


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