Friday, April 17, 2015

A FOLLOW UP OF WHAT I ACHIEVED IN LIFE

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2.                         A FOLLOW UP OF WHAT I ACHIEVED IN LIFE
A couple of years ago , I wrote  ,what I thought was a  disappointment in my life, a short essay on the subject . I gave the example of a craftsman , by way of  illustration ,for eg   a potter who takes pride in his work. Ever since my posting in the Economic Affairs Division , I have been drawing  a graphic picture of my tomb  that instead of mud , it will have thick files and flags as bookmark in every colour and description . At the head , a file board , with Urdu poetry inscribed ,will be placed . Sympathizers from the family and friends rushed with messages of annoyance for being an ingrate . They referred to my service to the State of 35 years : that I retired with my integrity and reputation intact , a rarity in Pakistan , particularly the Government circles : having a fine family and educating my children in the finest Institutions and leading a comfortable life .
All said and done  I felt something was missing in my life . And  after my retirement , a feeling of emptiness began hounding me. To keep myself busy , I adopted writing . I suddenly realized that that the profession was meant for me . Not that I earn . In fact , I earned about $ 10000/ selling my articles on Fanbox . But my account finished and I could not cash my writings . The moral of it : Easy come .Easy go.
The advantages of writing whether professional writings or otherwise are :-
1.    One can express his feelings unhampered.
2.    Writing keeps me busy the whole day .
3.    Since I am not professional writer , I use emails to send them to my family and friends or use Facebook , Huffington Post and the newspapers ( blogs only) of home and abroad . I even send them to those family members living abroad whose faces I do not remember.
4.    I even send them to those who hurt me  .
5.    I don’t expect others to agree with me in toto . But somewhere I will find a receptive audience , not at once , but gradually .
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6.    The maximum the recipients can say “ Oh God . Not again” . “His writings are silly , lousy or boring. He makes me sick “
7.    I cant find time to indulge talking behind one’s back . So I don’t sin at the expense of my brother .
8.     Through my writings ,I have made acquaintances  living in faraway places whose names I cant even recall .
Mahfooz ur Rahman
Islamabad
March 21 , 2013       


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